That’s it. I need a back up plan. It’s been more than a year and I’m still in my little workspace beside my bed. It hasn’t been for lack of trying. I’ve gotten browner and I’ve lost the soles of my shoes to the heat of concrete pavements, once nearly walking barefoot in an industrial jungle. It was after a hopeful chat with yet another weary executive who probably wished he could’ve swapped soles with me if it meant a moment of freedom from the rigors of his suit and brick cage.
I am about to give up my dream of working in the industry. I’ve been told that unemployment, unhappy employment and poorly compensated employment have become epidemics. Well, I am earning but not just in the manner and place I would have wanted. But I cannot endure in the current exercise of mindlessness which I have had to bear for the sake of survival. Nor can I wait longer for the right industry to have myself enslaved to. I can feel the whiteness invading the roots of my hair. I must act now or I will have a lot of regrets to mull over as I sit on my rocking chair, absently rubbing my tongue over toothless gums.
I’m thinking of shifting careers. Tell me, is web design and internet marketing really as horrific as I think it is or will I fit right in? There were a few subjects in high school that made my bowels harden and loosen in turns— math, physics, entrepreneurship and computer programming. All required my teachers to close their eyes in pity so their pens could stray and let me pass. But at least I retained some measure of comprehension for the first three subjects. Computer programming however left me comatose and in limbo. From the first day of class to the last, I understood nothing. I wonder how I ever got a numerical grade when the equivalent of nothing is nothing. My teacher must have had her eyes shut really tight or she must have been related to David Blaine.
I’d like to suspect that it wasn’t really my fault. Am I really such an idiot or did I just have a skunk for a teacher? There’s only one way to find out. If I really am an idiot, my bowel movement will tell me so as soon as I read my first tutorial.
The question is where do I begin?
for me i started thinking big, acting big, then looked for some “big” jobs on the net, hehe!
i’ve beena call center agent for so long and i think being in the IT field is a super jump from my uncomfortable, yet good paying job before hehe
pano ba yan..nsa col center din ako. ^_^ I am also dreaming of becoming big, following my dreams…go on adventure like Lara Croft.
I want to become an Archeologist someday. I’m trying to earn as much money as i can (I need to remind myself of that and stop spending money over unwanted things). But definitely I will be mastering in Archeology or if not Anthropology is also a choice…ndi man ako magaling to pass sa UP (un lng alam kong may Archeology course dito) kakayanin..basta gusto may paraan. kya pa yan bta pa naman ako eh…nxt yr cguro matutupad na yan.
Think positive ate…and oi…akala ko ba may balak kang baguhin yang template mo?..I guess until now ndi mo p rin napapag-aralan..hihihihihih…;)
so mel kailangan ko mag think big at bumilib sa sarili. whew. pinapawisan ako. i can’t believe nagka interes ako sa isang kurso na pinalpak ko sa high school. hehe. kailangan ko na mag umpisa kasi tumatanda na ako
uy webster, alam mo ba gusto ko rin maging anthropologist/archeologist dati kaso yun nga UP lang ang may archeology eh ang layo ko at di ko ma afford lumipat. pero yung ate ko nakapag tapos ng post graduate studies sa anthro. ngayon di ko na alam kung saan siya kasi kahit saang lupalop ng mundo na tinatapon. sarap ng buhay niya. hehe. go for it lara twelb. 🙂
oo. tagal ko na gusto palitan yung template ko kaso talagang na busy ako sa mindless job ko ngayon eh. hehe. hintay lang tong template na ito pag naging master na ako. kelan pa kaya? 🙂
Lahat naman nagsisimula sa walang kwenta mare eh. Ang mahalaga eh nagawa mong magsimula kahit parang malabo ang lahat para syo.
Bumalik ako sa pagpasok sa kolehiyo sa age na 23(1st yr ulit) Napaisip kasi ako na panahon na para subukan ang sarili, kaya nagtry akong magexam sa isang university sa manila kahit 2500 lang ang savings ko.
Mantakin mo mare nakatapos ako kahit para akong gagong pumapasok sa skul na di alam kung saan kukuha ng pambaon kinabukasan.
Ngayon masayang masaya ako dahil nakatapos ako(sa kursong gusto ko) at nadiskubre ang mga kahinaan at kalakasan ko.
Kung natakot akong sumubok nun, siguro nilamon na ako ng sistema ngayon mare. Sensya medyo mahaba-haba comment ko, nadala kasi ako eh.
Kauste!!!!!! nagbalik ka! this is great news indeed!
grabe pala ang pinagdaanan mo ano? naisip ko rin talaga na ang pinakamahirap na kalaban natin ay ang ating sarili. pag nag give up ako talagang walang wala na.
salamat sa pag bahagi mo ng story mo. talagang nakaka inspire. sa totoo lang love ko ang first course ko pero sobrang hirap makahanap ng mapag tratrabahuan dito sa tinitirahan ko. hindi mabenta ang kurso ko dito kaya naisip ko mag aral ulit ng web design. hahay pare, sana naman ito na talaga ang para sa akin. ang hirap maghanap ng maghanap ng pwesto sa ilalim ng araw 🙂
kakatuwa post mo, refreshing pagkatapos kong ayusin yung template ko.
hirap talaga mag-UTurn ng basta basta pagdating sa career. pero kung di mo na man gagawin either paparusahan mo sarili mo or tanggapin at maging masaya na lang sa kung ano meron ka (na sa palagay ko parusa pa rin, hehehe).
haha. magandang perspective yan caca. ganito talaga pala ang buhay. di natin lagi nakukuha ang gusto kaya kailangan mag desisyon na mag pursige sa ibang larangan kahit mahirap. pero exciting naman ano? 🙂